if the burden seems too much to bear remember the end will justify the pain it took to get us there

Oh my gosh. I read for Sabina. My dream role ever since I knew of the existence of "The Skin Of Our Teeth." What happened was, during our theater exam period, Mrs. Hopton called I think all of the senior girls back and gave us all some different stuff to read for. Some people had "The Crucible" stuff, then there was the Sabina thing, and some stuff from a couple other plays. All she gave me was a piece of paper with Sabina's monolog on it and another monolog which is just this person crying and being really hysterical. Well as soon as she handed it to me and I read the first line and immediately recognized what it was I was just like "Holy crap. This is it." I have no clue how I did, that character is just so hard to play, and I was so worried about it. I just copied the movie. I barely even looked at the other monolog. I was so freaked out. I want that part so badly. I'm trying so hard not to get my hopes up because I know the odds are against me for getting it. I know who probably will get it...and it's not me. I think reading for it made me actually about 100 times more nervous for the lists tomorrow. I just want to KNOW. I just want a part....if I don't get Sabina I better see my name next to something else....please please please God. I need to stop freaking out and getting my hopes up because I know I'm not getting it. *Breathe* I just want to KNOW!!!!!!!