if the burden seems too much to bear remember the end will justify the pain it took to get us there

A few years ago we went to Mammoth Cave in Kentucky on vacation. There's part of the tour after they take you down in the cave when they turn off all the lights. And it's pure black, I mean, you can't see the hand in front of your face. The reason I remembered this is that in church today the pastor used this as an alagory or something, I don't remember exactly...but it reminded me of when we went there and I experienced it. And the first thought that came to my mind upon remembering is that I would like to go back there, go back into that cave, deep into it, and when they turn off the lights I would just curl up in a corner and lie there forever, comforted by the blackness. Just curl up in a ball and go to sleep in the blackness of a cave. And stay there. That's the first thought that came to my head. This is just one of those depressed days I guess....ugh. I wish to god I could just have what I want right when I want it...with no concern for the future, everything just perfect right now. That's what I'm selfishly wishing for right now. I'm going to write a poem later, but now back to writing my speech...woot.