if the burden seems too much to bear remember the end will justify the pain it took to get us there

I never said
what you thought I meant
and I always showed my heart.
How can you tell me
honestly
you didn't know
what I said
from the start.
Maturity is overrated.
I've been there, done that
and ended up empty-handed.
All I wanted was an arm around my neck
and a genuine "I love you"
someone to understand.
Right now
this moment
with no concern for the future.
No wondering
if broken hearts could stay friends.
I know you're right
about what lasts longer
but my patience is over
I've been through this before
always hurting at the end
and nothing to show for my pain
but ticket stubs in a manila folder
labeled with your name
and how long it lasted
how long I held out my hope
for all I wanted to finally come true.
Approaching 17
the first time I feel old
my lack of experiences driving me
to tears
someone come break my record
of lack of love.
All I want
is a kiss for my birthday
and an arm around my shoulder
and a voice to say "I love you"
and understand
and feel the same.
I never said
I just assumed
my honest intentions would show through.
I thought I was on the verge of
perfection
a movie ending.
This overwhelming desire to rush.
But all I wanted
was too much.